My family is deteriorating so is my life (what life?)

I was waiting for this to happen. I knew it would come at some point. Business is struggling, no one wants to take any responsibility. No one wants to do anything to make the situation better. Everyone despises everyone. I am on the edge of depression, and I don't say that lightly. It has been slowly coming on for the last two years now. With an increasingly abusive ageing father, another one of his destructive tantrums tipped me over a few weeks ago. And I have been on edge ever since.

I actually went on holiday to Edinburgh for 3 days a week ago with two friends, on the second day stupid things my friends did tipped me over and I sat in my room (alone) and cried. They know nothing. I paid for the apartment we stayed in, and I arranged and lead them to the sights, basically I had to organised everything and they were happy to follow. I was not happy to have to lead all the time. It pissed me off that they were constantly on their fucking smart phones paying no attention to where we were going or how to get there. I had expected better of them, so that teaches me to do absolutely nothing next time they want to go somewhere. They can fucking do it themselves, and if it doesn't happen, fuck it.

I have nothing to live for here. I was considering moving to Edinburgh after seeing it. The people don't seem to be so self-conscious and shallow as they do in London. I just need to get away from everyone here. A clean break. There's no other way to live in my house any more, it's just going to get worst.