I had one such dream last night, or was it actually this morning when I went back to sleep after having a shower.
A group of friends, three couples. I'm with either my long term boyfriend or husband. It feels like a stable relationship. All the men were friends before any girl friends came along. We're out somewhere by an old brick building and there's discussion about some sort of business my partner and one other guy are setting up. It feels like a trendy part of town, somewhere like Brick Lane. For some reason, there's anticipation that I and one of the other guys (not my partner) will have to put on a kiss. I have no idea why, it almost feels like some sort of acting job for something. Very strange. My partner is behind still in the building, I'm going outside with the two other guys. I know there is attraction on both sides, but I also know he has much deeper feelings. I think he thinks he's in love with me. He has that starry eyed look. He's ahead of me, while the other guy is just about to come out. He turns back to me and half jokingly tries to kiss me, I say 'stop it' in a half serious way. He then grabs me and gives an almighty kiss just as the other guy comes out. He sees it and I know he see it.
Later, I get a few seconds alone with the friend that saw us, and tell him 'Don't say a thing'. He knew there was something between us. I actually don't know how I feel about it, though who wouldn't feel somehow good about being wanted? I remember just after the kiss, holding his face in my hand tenderly. Like I really wanted it.
This was not like other dreams I've had which always seem surreal with shifting scenes or something ridiculous or fantastic. This seemed very vivid, as if it had really just happened. I don't know what it means. I just wish it were real.
I don't know where it came from, I hate soap operas and romantic chick flicks. I've never had any feelings towards friends boyfriends, no one in passing. It takes quite a lot for me to become truly attracted to someone, more than just looks or swagger.
Maybe an emotional release or something?
